Chapter 255 A Yahoo User on Equanimity and Prescription Drugs

I read this long user post on one of the blogs on Yahoo! when I Googled Equanimity and Health…So I thought I’d share the contents of one of the blog posts.  He/she was very passionate, so I think it is a good post.  I abbreviated the central points here…

He felt that Doctors and Pharmaceutical Companies and Insurance Companies are only in this for one reason only—“profit”.  The conventional treatment for most diseases go on for years with no improvement.  All treatment recommended by the doctors should be tested and approved and quite rightly so.   That makes sense right?   Obviously it costs vast sums of money to test and approve treatments because of the possible damage to people.  The drug companies fund most research and will look at treatments (not prevention) which show the promise of good deal of a profit, –they will actively dismiss any therapy which does not have profit potential— thus your doctor will only recommend therapies with profitable drugs.  Despite the fact that some of these other therapies mentioned below do have overwhelming benefits some, which have saved needless amputations, needless pain and trauma, needless kidney failures and much loss of life, they are not recommended by the health industry.  Drugs are “usually” not the answer for mild or moderate depression with mind altering chemicals or any other mental illness. This is a fundamental principle and unless you grasp this fully –you could /will have years of suffering ahead of you. 


This does not help you though when you are ill and suffering—not hearing about therapies which can help from a person you look up to and trust. Have you heard your local doctor recommend, alternative therapies for anxiety and depression like “Massage Spiritual healing, Herbs, Light therapy, Color therapy, the violet ray therapy, Osteopathy, Electrical Frequency devices?”

1)  These therapies will work for many complaints especially for anxiety and depression which are so common.  Let someone to massage your back and legs at least 3 times a week use peanut oil or a mix of 50-50 olive and peanut oil.
2)   Use the violet ray machine an edgar cayce device (google search this) — 3 times a week on the other days especially on the spine….we use it every day with very positive results
3)  get a tent and sleep out side 3times a week utilizing earth energy – nature can help meaningfully especially with how you feel how much energy you have
4)  study and apply good nutrition adequate minerals all of them particularly calcium and magnesium iron essential fatty acids as well omega 3 6 9 fatty acids, have adequate protein.
5) ensure your thyroid is working well
6)  ensure you do at least I hr per day some kind of voluntary work when you are able. The reasons you are ill, or poor or have all sorts of bad things happen to you is because of karma–usually from past lives but some from this one –voluntary work will offset your mistakes— how much it offsets well that is up to God and how much you do. Healing is in direct proportion to the help we give others i.e. your healing comes with helping others achieve their own healing so if people are doing very little in helping others —they suffer more and longer…and if they are doing a lot they get well faster, so now you know what to do, and like a lot of us are already doing service work.
7)  Be among people who are giving, friendly who have time for you who love you, choose your friends well
8)  be or get to a place which personally you love or like (do you like the city or country?)
9)  get and do some work which you like or love
10)  ensure you do no acts which hurt or inflict on anyone –don’t add negatively to your karma.
11)  spiritual healing and reiki are paramount
12)  think good positive thoughts, laughter, look at comedy, play good uplifting music,
13)  avoid at all costs exposure to violence, murders, suffering ,death, tragedies, this is what is pumped at us and they call it the news ..feed upon good things , uplifting things, things that feel like a breath of fresh air..
14) Positive affirmation- that’s right…program yourself in the mirror, thoughts are “things”,  words are “things” actions are “things”, all have influence, few people realize these things can have an effect on themselves .
15)  detox from all pharmaceutical drugs not absolutely necessary if they do not have a natural alternative therapy —— toxins can influence how you feel enormously.
16) Get plenty of hugs–get plenty of them in your daily life you would be amazed at how people feel after a few decent hugs….
17)  Get loads of exercise running walking climbing but something which you enjoy which you use your body for.  Physical exercise is so important for achieving a peaceful state of mind.

 I just distilled it and cleaned up the text, but most of what was written in the post I thought could help.  I sort of agree about all the pharmaceutical drugs we as a society pump up into our bodies.  Often, the patients come in sicker after being on the medications due to all the side effects….


About youngkim3000

I grew up in Virginia and went to a top tier high school, being so ambitious and wanting fame and fortune like the next kid. I received good grades and then I went off to the University of Chicago where I majored in Psychology and Economics. After a brief but successful "Wall Street" career, I realized that I was not happy and left thinking that a career in the medical field would satisfy me. Then, I did some post Bac work at Northwestern and UIC, and then ended up at UIC Medical School. The problem was I was not happy there either. The structure, the repetition, and lack of being able to be free and spontaneously creative really knocked me down. Having to be subject to constant subjective evaluations sucked my soul dry. As I sought another chapter in my life, then came the financial collapse of 2008-9 which destroyed the "nest egg" and saving that I had worked so hard to build after college--which I so "identified with". I was so depressed at the loss of career and the loss of money that I fell into self pity and a deep seated depression. For weeks on end, I could not even get out of bed. I went to many doctors who could not really help me. I took so much anti-depressant medication and also self medicated with alcohol to dull my mind. One day though, I went to the public library in Niles, IL, and picked up some books on "Self-Help". I figured what do I have to lose? I was already so depressed I could barely get through a day. I picked up books by Wayne Dyer (Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life), Deepak Chopra, Louis Hay, Ram Dass, Osho, and Eckhart Tolle (A New Earth), The Dalai Lama, and revisited my faith in Catholicism. I devoured so many books to unearth just why I was suffering so much. I learned so much about myself and realized that my deep suffering was actually a gift for me to discover myself. Simply put, those words in those books saved my life. I was taking so many drugs and my physical health was in serious jeopardy. I realized that I could not live with myself any longer, and I needed to be free. I realized...that it was my own thoughts that were making me so depressed, as was my own "life story" that I replayed over and over. I realized that my mind was busy creating negative thoughts. Thoughts are "things" and expand. I understood that you do not "normally" choose your thoughts. Just like the digestion of a meal, the mind automatically creates all kinds of thoughts whether you like it or not. Just like you do not "choose" to breathe with your lungs or "choose" to make urine from your kidneys, you "normally" do not "choose" your own thoughts. They just happen, just like digestion. And if you had a bad experience, your mind recreates the negative thoughts without your conscious consent but you are forced to relive them endless times per day. It is only through CONSCIOUS INTERVENTION that you can make your mind change course from recycling negative thoughts. This is just like your breathing. You breathe automatically, but you CAN choose to influence your breathing, you can hold your breath if you are going to dive deep in the water, or you can consciously "slow down" your breath if you are relaxing in meditation and prayer. Once I realized I did in fact have an ability to control my thoughts, I consciously redirected the thoughts to positive uplifting notions. I noted that I had built such a large ego that the collapse of it dragged me down in catastrophic fashion. A big ego is different from self esteem. Both were destroyed, but I learned to regain self esteem through positive affirmations and knowing that the negative thoughts are not reality. I was choosing definitively to live in the past via my repetitive thoughts. I was also choosing to live in an uncertain future that I painted with dreadful possibilities. I realized that if I live in the "now", the present moment, I really did not have any reason to be depressed at all. I discovered I really only live in the "now". The past and future are fictions. It is akin to a motorboat on the water on a lake. The "wake" that the boat produces is the past, my vision of the future is what I can see in front of me, but I really only exist ON the boat in the present moment. I was living my life only on the "wake" created many meters before. Soon, my self-pity slowly subsided as I learned to accept "what is" and not grasp for anything and everything that is valued by Society. I concurred that it was my own "expectations" not realized that were causing such waves of discontent. Once I dropped my self imposed sad "life story", my yesterdays, I came to my senses that there was no need to feel upset at all. That realization hit me like "a ton of bricks" and quickly lifted me out of the well, like a rope thrown down the dark walls of the deep well. I would like to share that it was only that single moment of enlightenment, a "satori" event that forever changed my life, but that was not so. It was a gradual climb out of the abyss (over about a year). I realized that my mind was like a superhighway of blazing thoughts that went through my mind over and over based on the recent past. While my "life story" was going great, I believed in those thoughts, and my ego grew such that I became arrogant and sometimes unkind. Then when my "life story" changed for the worse, I similarly believed in those new negative thoughts with the same passion (which hurt me so deeply throughout my waking hours). I noted to myself that this was why I craved so many "tranquilizers" and medicines that would halt my thoughts. I realized that I was drowning in my negative thoughts and that I was CHOOSING to believe in them. But I learned through focusing on positive affirmations, meditation and prayer, I did not need any more drugs to "halt" my mind from stabbing me to death. Through the filter of society's measure I had evaluated my own life, unable to fully realize that it was all a fiction that my mind had created. I was completely unable to live in the present before this profound awakening. My life had turned into a constant "replay" of the past, the anxiety of the uncertain future...and my destroyed ego. Because of my belief that my thoughts were the ultimate truth, I suffered so deeply... but needlessly. Once I changed the direction of my thoughts, everything changed. The way I looked at my own life changed. I realized that LIFE is not a long emergency where the one with the most toys at the end wins. I realized LIFE is something to be lived fully, and joyfully...not some series of problems to be solved. Once I realized these insights, I realized that I was the creation of my own depression. Although a devout Catholic, I am also deeply moved by the ideals of Buddhism. About Karma and "Dependent Arising"...both of which are also in the Bible (Galations 6, Do not be deceived, God will not be mocked, a person always reaps what they sow). And I was...for the better part of my life, a runaway train into disaster that I was blind to...that I had planted the seeds onto. Putting money, fame, accolades, trophies, and so forth as the ultimate end to my goals sowed the seeds of psychological calamity when the inevitable tides of change occurs in every life. A person who extols those superficial qualities dooms himself/herself to disaster. The only variable is "time". Would it take a long time to find yourself in a train wreck or a short time? It doesn't matter. What matters is how soon can you realize the truth of existence and your place in it...and rise above what Society tries to focus you to believe. Society always makes you compare yourself to others, Society never leaves you alone to just be yourself. You have to exert effort and unlearn what Society has poisoned you with. I am now doing various "work" (not holding down any soul sucking corporate job), teaching, making money through various income sources like buying items at rummage sales and reselling them through Craigslist, asking neighbors and doing work they need, trading stock options when my financial tools indicate that there is a good trade. I am not focused on any "ladder to climb" or any "prestigious career"...and I am so much happier and at peace. I'd rather be "waterboarded" that go back to Corporate America. I have also a solid equanimity, and i am OK with whatever happens, and thus accept what God and the Universe wish for me. I wish to share my newly found wisdom and hope that my story and my interpretation of my newly found contentment can benefit others and I also wish to hear similar stories of awakening. God Bless, thanks for reading my "profile" and leave me your stories of awakening. Outside somewhere is a field where all of us are the same, I cannot wait to see you there...Namaste...
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