When you practice being a sage, when you practice stopping from wallowing in your self-pity, feeding your “sorrowful soul” you will notice that ever so slowly, you will begin to achieve higher levels of thought and realizations. Your mind’s thought have hopefully started slowing down. Hopefully, you would achieve an altruistic intention to cherish others more than yourself. Thinking incessantly to yourself, repeating, I, I, I, I, I, is one of the root causes of suffering. Don’t value yourself too highly ever. Nor should you value yourself too low. You are simply just a person, a unique person, but no different from anyone else.
One of the special memories I had was watching an old comedy sitcom called “Facts of Life” on cable. The episode is like 30 years old, and it featured one of the girls meeting a singer named Jermaine Jackson (brother of pop sensation Michael Jackson), when he was actually famous and doing well. When the young child actress asked a poignant question, “What’s it like to be a famous singer?”, on the show, Jermaine Jackson quietly and simply replied, “It is pretty much the same as your life. Sometimes you have good days, other times you have bad days.” Everyone is living their own life, with probably the same degrees of good days vs. bad days as you are experiencing.
You are a wonderful special person with an opportunity to experience such miraculous things that the universe provides for you. Cherish your life as a human being. An interesting quote about what you do with your life is, “One who is born as a human and then becomes involved in ill-deeds Is even more foolish than one who fills with vomit a gold vessel adorned with jewels.” — Nagarjuna. Three factors needed to achieve a solid human existence are: moral behavior, generosity, and good works.
Whenever you do good work though, the good effects of it can be destroyed by wrong actions…such as rage and anger. Luckily, the effects of a nonvirtuous action can be mitigated by 1) confessing it, 2) regretting having done it, which is contrition 3) Not intending to do it again, 4) Doing further good works such as public service. What is so strange that you may notice is that it is difficult to generate harmful angry feelings effortlessly while being virtuous and calm person. It often require conscious strong effort to be “bad” when you are doing and feeling “good”. Really rejoice that you were given the opportunity to be a human being. Think of how rare it is to be a human being, considering all the “beings” that live on this earth. Think about it, you “won” the lottery! You have been born as a human being! Just imagine it.
Use your keen intelligence to diminish the root causes of suffering. Three examples of this are lust, hate, and ignorance. Your life is so full of wonders greater than a wishing well. Use your life with care and reflection. Your mind is such a powerful vessel, and when aided by positive thoughts, can generate good deeds that are unreal in scope. You have to understand that all of your problems come from your mind’s wrong view of yourself and of other people. When you develop this desire, you can slowly become enlightened yourself, and you will wish it on and for others. Again, know that you are in a very good situation, to be human, and to be living now. Know this situation is so uncommon. Embracing that thought in itself is a happy exercise in enlightenment.