An unconscious and thus sleeping person will never be joyful, because he or she can never control it. To “try” to be in control means not allowing the natural state of joy and happiness to unfold. If you are separate from the whole, misery is certain. Becoming enlightened is like taking a series of medications to counteract the effects of the unfavorable forces of comparison, jealousy, lust, hatred, and ignorance. The medicines must be taken. To be cured of an infectious disease, it is not enough to get the medicine or understand how it works. You must take and swallow the medicine.
If you engage in things on a superficial level, you will become proud and jealous like a haughty and pretentious scholar. Make sure that your internal change is sincere. Again, try to meditate and pray at least four times a day if at all possible, and focus your mind on those things that you wish to become, like compassion and love, not a famous person or celebrity worth millions of empty dollars. A key fact to counter ambition is to discipline your mind. Through practice and prayer and meditation, your ambition will wither away, and love, kindness, and compassion will remain, much like a light that had shone where once there was darkness.
As we constantly mentioned, drop your story of “I, I, I” and the “Story of Me”. Re-reading your life story is bound to make you miserable. The more one tries is the farther and farther the possibility runs away from oneself. Awakening is not something to be achieved, but something to be realized. It is the very fundamental nature of pure consciousness itself, so it is impossible to attain. Meditation alone is not going to help. But it will support your efforts at being able to escape from the clutches of modern society.
Anything requiring an effort of the mind is going to prevent oneself from realizing their oneness with the universe. It is something that happens once you truly drop all seeking and remain in tune with the present. Modern society often reminds me of the movie “The Matrix”, everyone is asleep doing the 9 – 5 obedient slave worker part by supplying tax revenue for the people in power. And building their machines and running their factories.