Again, the question arises once more. You ask yourself if you must suffer first before you enter bliss and happiness. Can’t you enter Heaven directly? Probably not. There are only a select few that are intrinsically free of the ego without effort. The ego only burns up in the fires of misery. There cannot be another solution. You must not only accept it, but you must fully understand and experience suffering first so that you can fully reject it unequivocally. You must suffer the irrational ego inside you in order to refuse to do business with it. It is then up to you whether or not you wish to create more hell for yourself to live in.
It is hard to accept to live in hell when you first encounter it in this life. Your entire effort in the beginning is to reject it. So you may be weeping on the inside but you continue to persist in smiling on your exterior surface. If you continue to go on denying that you are living in hell, the further disconnected you will be from your conscious awareness that you are a being of love and kindness. You may go on drinking your poison, and sit there in your basement, while your very being cries out for freedom. You can trust me that you can only go on pretending for a few moments, the truth of who you really are will always come out. Time will reveal every truth. If you hide in your misery, you will only create more misery. Become one with the pain and your hell, and start preparing for God to free you from Hell. Remember, you ego is always the source of your hell.
Joke time: He is such an egotist. When he hears thunder, he takes a bow.”
Joke time #2: He is such an egotist. When he says his own name, he takes his hat off.”